Hey guys! I hope you are all having a wonderful week ,I want to first thank you for being you, for being the shoulder I can lean un and serving as my therapeutic journal for the past year and half.
This past week has been a tough one for me. I normally stay away from social media + the blog when I am feeling like this but today I wanted to not only talk about something that we don’t talk about enough, but also remind you all how worthy you are.
My relationship with food has been a bit rock this week, I’ve been turning to food as a way to help me deal with stress and while it isn’t something that happens often, whenever I am overly stressed and feeling vulnerable that is the first thing that is affected. I’ve been going through a lot at the moment with my family and it is starting to add up.
Last week, Friday night was a particularly hard day for me, I was in bed crying because I ate “too” much and more precise food that I myself do not eat. This started a chain of event and emotions, my IBS started to act up, my digestion was off and my mood suffered greatly.
While I would love to be able to say that everything is great and I never have days like this, it isn’t reality and I want to be able to be as transparent with you all as I possibly can.
My sleep has been wonky the past couple of weeks, and I am currently trying everything + really looking into what foods can affect my sleep. I will be writing a post soon. I also woke up on Sunday around four in the morning with stomach pain, and tons of bloat. I finally got up, made tea and decided it was time to get out of my funk. It was time to stop punishing myself, it was time to move forward. The reason I’m sharing this with all of you is, babes there will always be days when you will feel off.
As I write this, I have to tear falling down my face.
It is okay.
We can’t just have happy colors all the time.
All the different shades of emotions add more depth to our coloring book that is life.
We should embrace that we are still alive, healthy and breathing.
It can be tough at times, just remember I am here telling you, you guys can do this.
YOU CAN DO THIS
I hope you all had a beautiful and spooky Halloween! Happy Wednesday! Xo
Have you been suffering with food lately? Have you or one of your loved ones suffered from an eating disorder? If so I truly hope they are in recovery and in the path of making amends with food and their body.