Hey guys! I hope you are all having a wonderful week ,I want to first thank you for being you, for being the shoulder I can lean un and serving as my therapeutic journal for the past year and half.
This past week has been a tough one for me. I normally stay away from social media + the blog when I am feeling like this but today I wanted to not only talk about something that we don’t talk about enough, but also remind you all how worthy you are.
My relationship with food has been a bit rock this week, I’ve been turning to food as a way to help me deal with stress and while it isn’t something that happens often, whenever I am overly stressed and feeling vulnerable that is the first thing that is affected. I’ve been going through a lot at the moment with my family and it is starting to add up.
IT’S OKAY
Last week, Friday night was a particularly hard day for me, I was in bed crying because I ate “too” much and more precise food that I myself do not eat. This started a chain of event and emotions, my IBS started to act up, my digestion was off and my mood suffered greatly.
While I would love to be able to say that everything is great and I never have days like this, it isn’t reality and I want to be able to be as transparent with you all as I possibly can.
My sleep has been wonky the past couple of weeks, and I am currently trying everything + really looking into what foods can affect my sleep. I will be writing a post soon. I also woke up on Sunday around four in the morning with stomach pain, and tons of bloat. I finally got up, made tea and decided it was time to get out of my funk. It was time to stop punishing myself, it was time to move forward. The reason I’m sharing this with all of you is, babes there will always be days when you will feel off.
IT’S OKAY.
As I write this, I have to tear falling down my face.
Trust me.
It is okay.
We can’t just have happy colors all the time.
All the different shades of emotions add more depth to our coloring book that is life.
We should embrace that we are still alive, healthy and breathing.
It can be tough at times, just remember I am here telling you, you guys can do this.
YOU CAN DO THIS
I hope you all had a beautiful and spooky Halloween! Happy Wednesday! Xo
Have you been suffering with food lately? Have you or one of your loved ones suffered from an eating disorder? If so I truly hope they are in recovery and in the path of making amends with food and their body.
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I suffer with food all the time. I’m slightly addicted, and it’s a hard road to battle. I was just thinking the other day that I’m ready for some real foods, no sugar, and lots of water. Then I remembered the time of the year it was. :-/
It is so hard to lose weight that is why it is an obsession in this country. I suffer everydy thinking and trying not to eat the wrong things and working out, we all go through it.
Yeah we do, the issue is it because an unhealthy behavior which can lead to something very dangerous.
Food is my drug. It’s sad and leaves me feeling guilty and anxiety ridden. It truly is a daily process to get through it all.
YEAH. Lived there and still have my days. It is so hard at times.
OMG. This is my week EXACTLY. Same exact response to whatever is going on. How crazy. I am glad you were able to forgive yourself, I am still eating Doritos.
I hope it gets easier for you š
I appreciate you sharing this struggle. I cannot begin to understand what you, or many others, deal with constantly. I have my ups and downs with food as well.
Thank you so much Krystal š
Thank you so much for sharing this! It is so true, some days are just bad and we need to learn to be okay with them, and think it will get better. Really enjoyed your writing.
It is funny that we think that change has to be sudden and over night. It never happens that way. It is just like learning any skill or sport, with repeated effort it gets easier and you get better.
Agree. It is so difficult to break that mindset. Yet so many of us have it.
I hope you are feeling better now!
And yes – life will always include rocky bits, and learning the best ways to cope with them is hard itself. I know that right now I’m going into a situation that will be stressful, so I’m pulling together everything I have learned (which includes enough good food – makes it easier to avoid things I don’t want to eat… but that its3elf can be hard.)
Thank you so much Anne, doing so much better!
I kind of hate how easy it is to turn to food when things aren’t going our way. Why can’t we turn to working out or doing something good for us? At the same time, I think we also have to let ourselves off the hook when we slip up. I find when I exercise self love and care, I don’t want to go for the bad stuff.
Eating disorders are very challenging! As a nurse, I have taken care of patients with different eating disorders and I appreciate you creating awareness.
Thank you so much Angela. I think it is a topic we shy away from talking about and it is so important to talk about.
I think it is wonderful to share, especially the not so good times. It is real life, and helps others see that there will be hard times but that they can overcome.
This is such an inspiring post. Recovery is a daily struggle and it lasts a lifetime. All the best!
*Hugs*, love. Thank you for putting this out there. I have similar struggles with my relationship with food, and just knowing that I’m not alone helps immensely. Appreciate you and your openness.
Thank you so much for just being yourself and being willing to share you story. So many people will be encouraged and inspired by your story.
Excellent post. We all have something we are struggling with. And it’s okay to feel vulnerable and put ourselves out there. I commend your raw honest expression. Please know you’re not alone in this and yes, it’s okay!
Love the reminders! I always push myself to levels where I break and I always have to take a step back and breathe.
I have had several family members that suffered from eating disorders. It is never easy. They still fight it today.
Life can be difficult and it is not always happy go lucky for everyone every day. We should be mindful of this and know that this too shall pass. So too with the good times. More power to you for having the courage to share this on social media when you were feeling down.
You are so right, it will pass, it is important to talk about it.
Hi – I super appreciate this post as I’ve just posted a blog about my own issues with eating these past few months. Crazy I stumbled upon your post as it is just what I needed to read right now. So thanks š
I am so glad you liked the post Rachel. It’s an on going battle, I’m not gonna lie but it is SO worth it. Gonna check it out š
I don’t battle an eating disorder, but I have a sweet blogger friend who does. Reading your post and hers has taught me the strength and bravery that those who do have. One thing my friend has taught me is that it is a lifelong thing even after being in recovering.. in one of her posts she said “I’ll still recovering from an eating disorder and will be for yours to come. Again, so much strength and bravery! I look up to your and support you!
Her post: http://thepersistentpineapple.com/2017/08/3-things-you-need-to-know-about-me/
Hannah Rooks
http://www.therookiewife.com
Thank you so much Hannah, for sharing this with me. Your friend is right, you are always in recovering, it is a daily process and never ending. š Wish her the best as well as you!
Food and I have such a love hate relationship because it is a constant struggle. I can completely relate to eating too much or the wrong foods and then it ruining your self esteem and mood. It can be hard to realize that you can get past it, but recovery takes time.
It’s an on going battle, and I totally get what you’re saying with the love hate relationship. Wish you the best in this journey. š